A little more than a year and a half ago (I think or more, time is such a funny thing...), I was sent a friend request (through myspace) from a woman in Germany, whose profile name was: Full-Time Angel. Her profile photo was luminous, beautiful and full of such genuine joy. We corresponded through comments (both on our mutual pages and our photos) and personal messages. What brought us together was a mutual myspace-friend (Mahmut Altunay) who created the first Romy Schneider profile on the site (which we were both on). He thought that the both of us would really get on. So, came her request and my acceptance of it.
In the brief, too-little correspondences we shared, it was to my delight that her spirit matched her photo. But, how could it not? We encouraged each other, gave words of support, offered gentility in those episodes in life that bring darkness... We never spoke about acting. She was also an actress. Much of her credits lie in the theatre, with, I believe, 2 or so credits of film. She would always tell me that she was going to steal the quotes I had on my site because it held such truth for her as well and she would always thank me (as if I were the one that said it). The quote she most loved was the one by Samuel Beckett:
"Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better." (Which I only knew of because of an interview I read on Natasha Richardson, long, long ago)
My favorite comment of hers that she made about one of my photos was:
"what a wonderful picture!
it looks like you're lying in your own wing....beautiful!! "
Only she would write me something like that! Angel-thoughts.Her birthday is tomorrow, December 13th. She would have been 32.She was killed on Wednesday (December 10th) evening when a car hit her as she was crossing the street. She was on her way home after a workshop held by Rosa von Praunheim. She died at the scene.
She was born in Mannheim. Spoke Turkish, French, Spanish and English. Studied philosophy, history, sociology, and theatre. She is survived by her mother, two sisters and boyfriend.
She was an angel through-and-through. And now, passing from this door to the next, she takes her angelic attribute and is watching over all of us she has touched. Perhaps, even over those who never had her in their lives. I wouldn't be surprised.
Our very last exchange (on this earth) was my response to her status of her being lost in a deep black hole:
"remember it's always darkest right before the light appears...
sending wonderfully beautiful thoughts to you~"
From that she sent me a message and I sent her one back. That was the last of it. I never had the chance to meet her...
Our Full-Time Angel's name: Melek Diehl.
Her name is Turkish and means, "Angel." (Thank you for telling me that, Mahmut)
Melek is now resting in Great Peace.
(c) lovelle liquigan 2008
*Please, if you know of any error that is written here, let me know and it will be corrected straightaway*
